Sean and Will sit
in the bleachers at the mostly empty park. They look out over a small pond, in
which a group of schoolchildren on a field trip ride the famous Swan Boats.
WILL: So what's with this place? You have a swan
fetish? Is this something you'd like to talk about?
SEAN: I was thinking about what you said to me the
other day, about my painting. I stayed up half the night thinking about it and
then something occurred to me and I fell into a deep peaceful sleep and haven't
thought about you since. You know what occurred to me?
WILL: No.
SEAN: You're just a boy. You don't have the faintest
idea what you're talking about.
WILL: Why thank you.
SEAN: You've never been out of Boston.
WILL: No.
SEAN: So if I asked you about art you could give me
the skinny on every art book ever written...Michelangelo? You know a lot about
him I bet. Life's work, criticisms, political aspirations. But you couldn't
tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You've never stood there and
looked up at that beautiful ceiling. And if I asked you about women I'm sure
you could give me a syllabus of your personal favorites, and maybe you've been
laid a few times too. But you couldn't tell me how it feels to wake up next to
a woman and be truly happy. If I asked you about war you could refer me to a
bevy of fictional and non-fictional material, but you've never been in one. You've never held your best friend's
head in your lap and watched him draw his last breath, looking to you for help.
And if I asked you about love I'd get a sonnet, but you've never looked at a
woman and been truly vulnerable. Known that someone could kill you with a look.
That someone could rescue you from grief. That God had put an angel on Earth
just for you. And you wouldn't know how it felt to be her angel. To have the
love be there for her forever. Through anything, through cancer. You wouldn't
know about sleeping sitting up in a hospital room for two months holding her
hand and not leaving because the doctors could see in your eyes that the term
"visiting hours" didn't apply to you. And you wouldn't know about
real loss, because that only occurs when you lose something you love more than
yourself, and you've never dared to love anything that much. I look at you and
I don't see an intelligent confident man, I don't see a peer, and I don't see
my equal. I see a boy. Nobody could possibly understand you, right Will? Yet
you presume to know so much about me because of a painting you saw. You must
know everything about me. You're an orphan, right?
Will nods quietly.
SEAN: (cont'd) Do you think I would presume to know
the first thing about who you are because I read "Oliver Twist?" And
I don't buy the argument that you don't want to be here, because I think you
like all the attention you're getting. Personally, I don't care. There's
nothing you can tell me that I can't read somewhere else. Unless we talk about
your life. But you won't do that. Maybe you're afraid of what you might say.
Sean stands,
SEAN: (cont'd) It's up to you.
And walks away.
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